I have feelings. I have beliefs, which I have come to understand that they should be kept internal, as in not vocalized, unless asked of. I have memories, which I treat in a similar way, but my feelings really shouldn't be bottled up. However, any time I try to express them, they never translate. I feel as though nobody knows who I really am, although I am a part of that nobody. I guess more self-discovery is necessary. I should really establish myself within my own life again, I have been getting walked over lately because of my lack of confrontation, but there has got to be a better way of peaceful existence than total passivity to those around you. I mean, I guess the unconscious would want my influence, since what I know would help them overcome fear. My only worry in "bursting forth" in this manner is: am I even ready? Have I overcome my own problems yet? I mean, obviously not, but does that mean by starting, they would bleed into my message? I simply do not know what to do. I'm sure this is the origin of meditation, because that is the only thing I can think to do at the moment that can't harm anything any more. I admit, I am afraid.
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